5 AM Blogging

10I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Philippians 4:10-13

For some reason, I'm wide awake. I've tossed and turned to no avail. It's been a tiring couple of weeks for me. Work, school & serving continue to take up major portions of my life. It's not that I don't enjoy it, but things have been out of whack for months now. It's frustrating when there are so many things that you want to do, but never seem to be able to. Whether it'd be working out, devotions, journaling, friend's & family. You know the priorities are all messed up when the thing that is most important to you is the thing that there's never any time for.

One of the lies Satan throws at you is to amplify all the things that aren't right in your life and draw away from the things that are. It's these times that God will continually ask me if He's enough for me and if I can believe He is bigger than all this. This passage has popped in my mind lately. I really wonder what it must be like to find contentment in any situation. God is constantly hammering away at me that it's the journey that matters over the end result. I'm starting to get it. I want to see this happen.