A Time For Everything

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

9 What does the worker gain from his toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. 13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-14

I'm very much immature in the sense that I'd rather put up a wall around my all perceived flaws and hide behind it than be real with myself or anyone else. At times I feel that I can never be fully satisfied in who I am until I've tackled almost every weak point. I guess I want to be this kind of superman sans kryptonite. God showed me otherwise.

To acceptance one's self as a constant work in progress has been one of the toughest truths for me to swallow. That forming the Christ-like character I desire is knowing that it is God who reveals to me what parts of my character that needs to develop, not just picking which "fruits of the holy spirit" attributes I believe I have to improve upon so I can "feel" more Christ-like. What it boils down to is whether or not I can completely accept that my character formation has to be done GOD's way, with GOD's mindset in GOD's timing. It is humility at its finest because it's the complete acknowledgement that I can't do this any other way. It is also freedom because it is not the end result where I recieve redemption but in effort that was made in the present.

For the first time in a while I've feel I'm being real with myself. That the words I'm using are what I feel rather than recycled content; and that the Scriptures revealed the Truth in a way that was elegant, graceful and powerful all in one.