Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Review: Basketball Diaries

I just finished watching Basketball Diaries, the autobiographical movie of Jim Carroll played by Leonardo Di Caprio.

It's about an adolescent growing up in New York who plays on a Catholic Highschool basketball team with the potential to play college basketball, dreams of making it to the NBA and delusion of invincibility before he starts getting into the drug scene as casual recreation with a couple of teammates. He's at the top of the world but it's only before long that casual recreation leads to everyday habit; lead to obsession and all that potential and dreams gets traded for instant temporary gratification and escapism from the responsibilities and realities of the real world. It's soon that his academics slips and his basketball performance hits a landslide. He eventually chooses to trade in his basketball jersey for a life on the streets and petty crime to support his addiction.

While the story itself isn't anything out of the ordinary or anything I've never heard of before, its the rawness of the individual's decay of character that makes the movie so compelling and powerful. For each hole that he gets dug deeper into, you'd like to believe that the grim realities of what's out there and the lessons he's put through finally stop, but they keep coming. While I don't think I can begin to, or want to, imagine what that harsh realities of growing up and living in New York slums is like, I can believe it exists and I can believe it can sink that low. I think this is what makes the whole movie so credible and profound.

Sometimes I feel being in the Queen's bubble puts me completely out of touch with how tough the real world can be which tempts me to be complacent. That I don't feel prepared at all for what lies ahead at all. I could to a degree understand how Jim Carroll's downward spiral began. It wasn't the drugs that led to his fall, it was succumbing to every temptation, every instant gratification, pride and lack of self responsibility in every scene that did it. In many ways, it was like living a hellish nightmare.

I'd like to believe that it could never happen to me. That I'm strong enough to resist the temptations of the world and make the right decision. But I know I do succumb to temptations of laziness, selfishness and indifference more than I'd like to admit and so it means that I'm not impervious. Now I've seen junkies on the street before, seen lives that live and die paycheque to paycheque and I could let my mind conjure up what path they wound up taking that led them to this point. Watching that movie painted a more vivid and realistic picture beyond anything my mind could ever imagine.

It's watching something like that makes me want to work hard, never settle for anything less than my best and try my hardest to not take everything around me for granted. At times, I have lacked motivation to do God's work and wound up shortchanging his glory for something much less spectacular because I couldn't see the bigger plan beyond my own. And its been those times that I have felt the most regret. It's that combination of growing with God and the consquences of choosing not to is what'll hopefully set me straight. I'm reminded that God will take care of me, but I have to choose to make that effort to take care my end of things and feel nothing but humbleness.

Basketball Diaries....Great movie. Highly recommended.

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