Something's Gotta Give
Summer's almost gone. It's been one of the toughest summer I've had to deal with, because it's a summer where so much change is being demanded of me. Once again, I've found my schedule has been overloaded to the point where I struggle to find time to fully commit to the things I want to. So many responsibilities, so many things I want to make a strong commitment to: Spiritual Growth, Devotions, Fellowship, Family, Job, Friends, Certification, Ultimate Frisbee, Dragonboat, Working out, Personal Time.
What I find I do all too often is try and keep a handle on everything. Fulfill some sort of spiritual, working, social, friendship quota I've got set for myself and jam some more in there. I hate the feeling of being constantly busy to the point where you're schedule has already been planned in advance. I read somewhere, busyness is not the same as living. This isn't the lifestyle God's called me to live and I can sense it.
I can't keep living this lifestyle that's so out of harmony with God's calling. I'm trying to be still and enter the presence of God, but I can't hear his direction. Something in my life has to give but I'm not sure what. I'm trying submit in reverance by I can feel the sin in my flesh opposing my will. I desire that Christian lifestyle and the will to grab hold of it. Protection over the evil one who'd get in the way of your plans for me. Put you first and restore the delicate balance that has been missing. I can't do this on my own, I need your help Lord. I'm tired of wasting the days settling for mediocrity and things that are superficial.
What I find I do all too often is try and keep a handle on everything. Fulfill some sort of spiritual, working, social, friendship quota I've got set for myself and jam some more in there. I hate the feeling of being constantly busy to the point where you're schedule has already been planned in advance. I read somewhere, busyness is not the same as living. This isn't the lifestyle God's called me to live and I can sense it.
I can't keep living this lifestyle that's so out of harmony with God's calling. I'm trying to be still and enter the presence of God, but I can't hear his direction. Something in my life has to give but I'm not sure what. I'm trying submit in reverance by I can feel the sin in my flesh opposing my will. I desire that Christian lifestyle and the will to grab hold of it. Protection over the evil one who'd get in the way of your plans for me. Put you first and restore the delicate balance that has been missing. I can't do this on my own, I need your help Lord. I'm tired of wasting the days settling for mediocrity and things that are superficial.
1 Comments:
In our age....the interesting part is not working too hard..we all work hard...the challenge is knowing when to not work too hard. To just back off when reaching that redline.
You mention how i haven't BO (burnt out). I did, through a number of times this year burnt out from church, training and social events.
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I am more sensitive to knowing when I am hitting my pressure point, hitting the red line and backing off. B/c a voluntary back off is better when the body/mind force itself to stop.
Backing off means...volunteer less to do project at work or skipping on a friend's outing. This, from one perspective, looks like i am not being ambitious or not being a friend.....but this is what it takes to be discipline.
So how does this apply to Christian life....welll...for me...there are times when i bail on social outings and trainings for church events and for my spiritual growth...
Even just going home early to have the energy to do devotion and prayer requires an effort.
To be Christian lifestyloe..it ain't difficult....put God first..pray...go to church..study the word...however..anything that is simple...is not necessary easy...
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