Stepping Out

I have this tendency to try and be a one man show when it comes to taking care of business. It isn't that I don't enjoy other people's company, it's just force of habit. It's something that I've been trying to work at for the past little while, to not be so quick and enter that comfort zone whenever things tend to get very hectic. More often than not, I try to be as independent as possible and I've yet to really see if that's pride, some sort of underlying fear or just nothing.

This past week has really forced me to step out of that completely independent comfort zone of mine. It all started when I discovered the wonderful world of crutches after spraining my ankle. It was a matter of my body not being able to will itself through the pain. I knew I needed help and that I couldn't do it alone. It was very much the same feeling mentally when I was trying to prepare for my upcoming bible study for retreat. I knew for a fact that I can't do this bible study by myself. That I can't just will my way through this bible study.

It's when it really occurred to me that the reason I can't do this study by myself is that maybe I'm not meant to. I started doing things I normally wouldn't, I attended workshops, asked people who had done bible studies before and asked others to pray for it. For a brief moment, I really stepped out of my comfort zone and really looked for resources that were out there. It made me really understand something that I've always been told numerous times. That God never asks us to do something if he hasn't already provided the means for us to do it. It's just simply a matter of looking in the proper places to find those resources. That in turn can only happen if I carry the right attitude towards what God has called me to do.