Freedom or Complacency?
Ever had one of those moments where you really can't have no complaints about life? Where things are good, not necessary great, but definitely not bad either.
You know, you just look around and you are more or less content with what you have and are slowly working towards what you want or need. Where you the things that are out of your control you lift up to God and the things that are in your control (which is very little, I might add) you've got a handle on. It's not as if I'm leading a super exiting life, but without question it's fulfilling.
I wonder if this is part of the freeing and promise of life in full that was offered when we come to Christ. That we take joy in our work and our struggles knowing that it will bear fruit and being thankful for the opportunity to do so. Before I accepted Christ in my life, I was always stressed out about everything. Careers, a girlfriend, personal achievement, everything. It seems like the world puts its pressure on you to conform to the way it does things. I could only put that burden on myself.
I'm not used to this idea of feeling free and slowly confronting and overcoming the barriers that have me pinned down with my relationship with Christ. I'm not sure if its freedom or complacency I'm feeling. I'm making sacrifice and trying to let God form me, trying to realign my priorities to what he commands.
Things are coming together, I feel God's faithfulness, and I believe I'm responding, but I can't help but think that part of me has to constantly feel some sadness and grief over this fallen world. I'd like to think that I'm doing all I can to prepare myself to combat it, which leave me with a feeling of relative peace. I'm almost tempted to say that everything is okay...almost comfortable. That I feel just calm and relaxed.
Usually the times that concern me the most are not when I'm in a tailspin (although I wouldn't trade situations), but when things are just going well. I'm always told that these are the times when it easiest to stray away from God. I'm going to enjoy what I have because God could easily take it all away, but I've got to stay guarded. I know there's got to be so much more than what's around me.
You know, you just look around and you are more or less content with what you have and are slowly working towards what you want or need. Where you the things that are out of your control you lift up to God and the things that are in your control (which is very little, I might add) you've got a handle on. It's not as if I'm leading a super exiting life, but without question it's fulfilling.
I wonder if this is part of the freeing and promise of life in full that was offered when we come to Christ. That we take joy in our work and our struggles knowing that it will bear fruit and being thankful for the opportunity to do so. Before I accepted Christ in my life, I was always stressed out about everything. Careers, a girlfriend, personal achievement, everything. It seems like the world puts its pressure on you to conform to the way it does things. I could only put that burden on myself.
I'm not used to this idea of feeling free and slowly confronting and overcoming the barriers that have me pinned down with my relationship with Christ. I'm not sure if its freedom or complacency I'm feeling. I'm making sacrifice and trying to let God form me, trying to realign my priorities to what he commands.
Things are coming together, I feel God's faithfulness, and I believe I'm responding, but I can't help but think that part of me has to constantly feel some sadness and grief over this fallen world. I'd like to think that I'm doing all I can to prepare myself to combat it, which leave me with a feeling of relative peace. I'm almost tempted to say that everything is okay...almost comfortable. That I feel just calm and relaxed.
Usually the times that concern me the most are not when I'm in a tailspin (although I wouldn't trade situations), but when things are just going well. I'm always told that these are the times when it easiest to stray away from God. I'm going to enjoy what I have because God could easily take it all away, but I've got to stay guarded. I know there's got to be so much more than what's around me.
