Depth
One of the things that irritates me to no end is seeing Christians who are apathetic or shallow about their faith or only treat it as just a set of morals. Cultural Christianity as I call it. The non-Christians, I can understand because they live by rules of the world and don't know about God's grace, but as Christians aren't we suppose to be conquerer's of this world, beacons of light?
Now it may be me being judgemental because in some cases I don't know that person's story. Truth be told, it's that apathy or shallowness that I'll see in some that reminds me ever so loudly of my own.
A constant theme that God has pressed in my heart lately is depth. Depth in my relationship with God, depth in the effort I provide, depth in my faith. What's revealed to me is the constant mediocrity in the way I live my life, tied to my willingness, or rather, unwillingness to heed to his word. I haven't felt incredibly wowed by God in my own life as of late and it occurs to me that its because I'm resisting with every fibre of my being to let God fully transform me. I don't want surface changes anymore. The flashiness of trying something new is beginning to ring hollow.
It can't be coincidence that I'm coming this relevation on Good Friday. The day that we celebrate Jesus dying on the Cross for our redemption. I need to come to God create me anew. Spare me the big talk, spare me the shallow faith, I want depth. Everything I've come across is leading to a familiar road I've been down before. A road that beckons me to utter words I'm downright scared to say because I know he would more than deliver.
God, give me the courage and strength to handle the depth and promise of full life you offer. Provide me with the will and faith to persevere through what I ask of you next. God, break me and mold me. I'm tired of this shallowness and mediocrity that is my faith.
Now it may be me being judgemental because in some cases I don't know that person's story. Truth be told, it's that apathy or shallowness that I'll see in some that reminds me ever so loudly of my own.
A constant theme that God has pressed in my heart lately is depth. Depth in my relationship with God, depth in the effort I provide, depth in my faith. What's revealed to me is the constant mediocrity in the way I live my life, tied to my willingness, or rather, unwillingness to heed to his word. I haven't felt incredibly wowed by God in my own life as of late and it occurs to me that its because I'm resisting with every fibre of my being to let God fully transform me. I don't want surface changes anymore. The flashiness of trying something new is beginning to ring hollow.
It can't be coincidence that I'm coming this relevation on Good Friday. The day that we celebrate Jesus dying on the Cross for our redemption. I need to come to God create me anew. Spare me the big talk, spare me the shallow faith, I want depth. Everything I've come across is leading to a familiar road I've been down before. A road that beckons me to utter words I'm downright scared to say because I know he would more than deliver.
God, give me the courage and strength to handle the depth and promise of full life you offer. Provide me with the will and faith to persevere through what I ask of you next. God, break me and mold me. I'm tired of this shallowness and mediocrity that is my faith.
